A Woman Has Revealed Her Shame At The Last Words She Spoke About Her Mom Before She Died

Image: Erica Peden via Love What Matters

Erica Allen Peden made a snarky comment about her mom, Regina, as she rolled out of bed to spend time with her on April 23, 2017. But that visit was never to be. Regina died suddenly that day, and her daughter said she was ashamed of what she had said just minutes before it happened.

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The city of Athens, Tennessee, was the backdrop for Peden’s life. She grew up there and studied at Tennessee’s Wesleyan University, where she earned her bachelor’s in history in 2014. The graduate then went on to work in the communications department of the town’s Utilities Board.

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In Athens, Peden also found her future husband, Nick, while they were both students at Tennessee Wesleyan. They met at a party in 2010 when she was a freshman and he was a junior, but their romance didn’t quite ignite right away, she wrote in a Facebook post.

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“After a few online conversations, a couple of dates over a year, and one chasing after the other at different times (it was exhausting), a relationship finally blossomed. We married in 2016 with our friends and family surrounding us,” Peden wrote.

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The choice to settle in Athens with her new husband and their five rescue cats was an easy one for Peden, she told Love What Matters. “I work and live in the same city as my family because of them,” she wrote. In fact, her house was only seven minutes away from theirs.

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Regina and her husband, Jim, had four children – three daughters, including Peden, and one son. The second-born of the Allen brood, the communications worker shared on Facebook that she always had a special bond with her mother. “To be honest, my mom was my person [to talk to],” she wrote.

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That bond was what made Regina’s death so heartbreaking for Peden. Especially considering what she said just before it happened. She wrote for Love What Matters, “It was April 23rd, 2017, and I was lying in bed with my husband of close to five months, laughing about something one of our cats did.”

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As Peden got up to get ready for the day, her husband asked her where she was going. “At just after 10 a.m. on a Sunday, I was planning to go see my mom. […] She had just gone through an abdominal surgery and was resting,” she recalled.

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And that’s when Peden let slip an uncharacteristically snarky comment. “I told [my husband], ‘I’m going to see mom. She wants to hang out with me, like, every day,’” she wrote. Later, she called it “the moment I am most ashamed of in my life.”

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“If it sounds bratty and immature, that’s because it is. I didn’t mean it. This was actually very unusual of me to say. I loved being with my mom,” Peden later wrote. But she couldn’t take the words back, and they would carry a lot of weight after the events of that day transpired.

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“That’s the last sentence I said before I got the phone call that not only changed my life but broke my heart,” Peden said. She heard her phone ring, then her younger brother’s voice on the other end of the line. He was “panicking and crying,” she recalled.

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Peden’s brother said, “Mom’s had a seizure or something, I don’t know what to do.” She instructed him to call 911 right away, at which point her husband was “standing up […] very concerned.” Little did the family know, but there was nothing they could do to help Regina.

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“My mom had already died. […] Basically, she was gone before she slid to the floor right in front of my dad,” Peden revealed. Regina had suffered from a pulmonary embolism. This occurs when blood clots, typically from a patient’s leg, journey to their lungs and block one of its arteries.

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But in that moment, the family had no idea, neither did the first-responders who came to the family’s home to try and treat Regina. Meanwhile, Peden wrote, “I am rushing to get dressed and crying because, sometimes, you just know that this moment is the life-changing one. Full of dread.”

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Regina was taken to the emergency room, but Peden’s father “knew she was gone while she was in […] for treatment,” she wrote. And, when doctors handed down the news that her mother had, indeed, passed away, she “went into deep shock.”

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Then, Peden had another tough reality to face – she had to break the news to her brother and sisters. “I had to look all three of my siblings in the eyes at different times and tell them our mom was gone while my dad and nana were with her to end [her] care,” she wrote.

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With that, all of the family’s lives instantly changed. In Peden’s case, she seemed to step in as caretaker. She began meeting her grandmother once a week for a meal. She planned parties for her sisters. On top of that, she wrote, “I call my dad at noon and 4 p.m., my mom’s old lunch break and time she left for work.”

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And, one and a half years after losing her mother, Peden described the time without her as “the longest […] years of my life.” Throughout the hardship, though, she did find some comfort in a dream that featured her mother.

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In it, Peden envisioned herself hugging her mom and could even “smell her lotion.” Then, the grief-stricken daughter apologized for what she had said the morning before Regina died. “I finally had the chance to tell her, ‘I loved hanging out with you. I love you,’” she wrote.

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In the wake of such a monumental loss, Peden had a bit of advice for others in a similar situation. “Call your moms and dads. Call your siblings. Take your grandparents to lunch. Plan a party. Work a little too much. Cry when you want to and, most of all, think about how soft your mother’s hand was when she would pat you on the leg and say, ‘Love you, baby,’” she concluded.

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